Summer heat

I have just been asked when my next posting on my blog will be, and as this week will be busy, there is no time like the present.

Well I must say summer has most definitely arrived and much as I love the warmth of the sun, I'm finding it quite hard to cool down. I even borrowed Denzil's fan tonight which is a new experience for me as normally I am sitting by my heater. Lol.

I must say that my front garden is looking at it's best just now if you ignore the weeds in between. My poennie roses are in full bloom and are gorgeous, the  "London Pride" makes a lovely border and I have other pretty plants in bloom. Unfortunately, they all come out at this time and I have nothing planted for later but it's lovely for now.I did cut the grass yesterday amongst it's dandelions, daisys and buttercups which I actually think look pretty but gardeners of the true type would not agree. Weeds are merely wild flowers and have their place. I get lots of poppies seeding and I think they are pretty but again, I have been told they are a weed.

Whilst I find such heat a bit difficult to cope with at night, one of my favourite things of this time of year is the mass of colour around.. It's just lovely.

Still on the subject of gardens and heat, my potatoes are certainly pleased. :-). I have planted two tubs and they are coming up well now. I can't wait to eat them. Nothing tastes better than newly dug up potatoes smothered in butter. May not be healthy but they are just divine.

I'm feeling very sorry for my mum being stuck in hospital  during this beautiful spell but I have to say that she was looking very much better than before she was admitted. The nurses, doctors and everyone seem to have been very efficient and attentive which is good to hear nowadays when they have had a certain amount of bad press. Hopefully she will get home mid-week.

Another result of this warm weather is it makes my cats sleep a lot, though on saying that, they have decided to wake up now and start playing. Well, they are nocturnal animals. :-). (A bit like their owner, or maybe I should change that as I think they actually own me.). :-). They also don't eat as much but I suppose that's just like humans as my appetite is less when it's hot.

Will finish up now as heading off to Balfron tomorrow to take Sian to nursery then she will come back here and stay overnight. Hope I can sleep! No duvet tonight.

Yet another day.

Well , here I am again, late as always but this is my time where I can think and speak. Life has been so hectic recently that I can barely draw breath.

My mum is in hospital but she's alright but it has been a little worrying to say the least. Nothing is as bad as first thought as the doctors thought she had a bleed in her stomach but this turns out not to be the case. She has had some bleeding in her throat and imflamed gullet but is recovering. She's still quite weak and getting physiotherapy and hopefully will get home soon.

I went last night to Glasgow to my daughter's college to watch her perform as Mary Queen Of Scots and although I am possibly slightly biased, she was brilliant. This is my daughter being what she is naturally good at. I feel that we should all find a way to not only display our talents but to just enjoy being who we naturally are. We all seem to work against our true being to fit in with what other's think.

I am laughing to myself as it was so cold earlier in May that we bought a new heater and now it is so hot I won't be using it. I don't like being cold but it is easier to warm up than cool down. I suppose we are never happy.

I am looking at my beautiful little grand-daughter who is sound asleep now. She found it hard to fall asleep tonight which I think had a lot to do with the heat. I find it also uncomfortable.

Well anyway, it's just a short update as I am extremely tired. Also , it goes without saying that my husband is getting a great response to his book and even interest in it being filmed. I am proud of my family and you just never know, one day you might hear my piano music. :-)

Changing Times.

Well here I am again, late as usual but it is my time of peace and when I can actually concentrate best. I will excuse myself by remembering it is early Saturday morning and that I am merely awake in a different way than I was when I was younger. I used to always go out on a Friday night and would happily sit well in to the early hours chatting, and trying to solve the world. I never actually managed to solve any of the problems that exist in this world but I have never stopped caring or trying my best. That is what I wish to be written on my gravestone when I pass over, " I tried".

I was talking to my husband earlier about how cruel time can be and he mentioned that it speeds up, the older you become, and he is right. When you are a teenager, you just think life will last forever and suddenly you realise you are almost fifty and wonder how on earth this happened so quickly.

I know my parents feel this even more acutely as they are well into their eighties now. It is a depressing time for their children, knowing the inevidible but my mum has a good approach to the afterlife (though our thoughts on this differ) but I think my dad fears it. Perhaps the fear of death itself is just frightening but I deeply feel that when you move, it will be better.

Well , I must say that this entry sounds a little depressing but I didn't mean it that way. It's just how life naturally happens but it's always going to be painful.

Anyway, to move away from that depressing concept, times really have changed so much within the period of me being here. I was born in 1962 and thankfully was blissfuly unaware of the Cuban Crisis which I would have been terrified of. I hate war and aggression and I don't believe we will ever solve anything by fighting.However, as a young child, I remember the freedom of just being. We always played outside, all our games from our own imagination and I feel this is becoming a lost way as we are today. Sad really. I remember my friend and myself decorating the thrown out Christmas tree with anything we could find in winter to still make it look pretty. Then it would be taken away in the bin lorry and gone till next Christmas when you got another tree. Christmas was wonderful as a small girl. :-)

I also think back on all that is now deemed bad for us in every way, and am quite sure is, like chocolate, puddings, chips and all I remember tasting good. We have moved on and now realise they rot your teeth, make you put on weight but I will say that we exercised more when I was young and I just remember being happy which is the most beneficial aspect yout health can ever have. :-)
I rather think it is time to be quiet, which incidentally was the polite way to say shut up as a child. That saying was considered very rude. you have to laugh.

Analysis

My thoughts today go to my love of analysing just about everything. I believe there is an answer somewhere to everything, and also a reason for it and that we should never give up looking for it.

I find patterns in everything and rhythm so it is interesting to record such things on a daily basis, which of course, I do.I record a diary of daily events and feelings, but I also keep a dream diary which is fascinating. If you compare it to the other diary, it becomes very obvious often what prompts dreams. The most interesting ones however, are the occasional times where you actually dream of events before they occur. Quite odd that, and only happens now and again.

Not surprisingly, I have an absolute fascination for astrology which is surprisingly accurate once you start looking at it properly. You need to know the position of planets etc at time of your birth plus ascendant and the aspects between the planets gives much information. Also the houses they fall in is very important but I know little on this as I am a complete novice but I love what I have learned and it does work. All very mathimatical actually. There is very much more to it all than the tiny meanings they give you for sun signs in newspapers and magazines.However the archetypes of the twelve sun signs bear a lot of imformation in their own right. I am Gemini with Scorpio Ascendant which is an interesting mixture and tempers my natural personality.

I am interested in all natural cycles and their repetitive patterns and hope one day to learn a lot more.

Late Friday night or rather Saturday morning.

I don't always seem to find time to do this , and as I feel wide awake I will add a little more.

I have always been a bit of an insommniac though have much improved over the years. There was a period in my life where I got no sleep for six weeks, a fact nobody believes but true none the less. I survived it but my goodness, talk about feeling "ragged". I have subsequently never tried to force myself to sleep since. I will just suddenly feel tired and I will be able to.

On this subject, prescription medicines were useless, probably because I was so against them, so they just didn't do anything. I did find herbal medicine helpful eventually and essential oils but the biggest thing was breaking the pattern of worry that I would not be able to sleep.

On a more positive front, my knitting is coming on well and I am still on target to finish it on time. Think I might need one more 100 gram ball of wool though. Which colour to choose?

Tomorrow, and indeed the next four days are going to be busy so I am taking this moment for me.

Anyway, that's it for tonight. Think I am beginning to feel tired.

Bank holiday Monday.

Monday again and a most relaxing one it was. As it was a bank holiday, I reckoned I too deserved a day off and did only what I wanted to do, other than the basic everyday neccessary tasks. This of course involved a lot of knitting and I am nearing the end of my project. (That was my pleasure, not a task) .

After a fairly good spell of weather, today brought grey skies and rain but I'm fine with that and hoping my potatoes might come on a bit faster as they are barely showing any foliage yet. I did finally cut my grass and my lovely little granddaughter helped me weed.

I had a lovely day yesterday as my daughter Rachel, her boyfriend Jason and my granddaughter Sian came for lunch. I made pork in tomato based sauce, slow cooked with spaghetti, followed by bars of Galaxy chocolate; my favourite. All seemed to enjoy it (both meal and chocolate) and Sian and I went to the park for a while. Altogether it's been a lovely holiday weekend. :D.

A sunny day at Loch Lomond.

Well, it has been yet another glorious day here in Scotland. I am feeling very sorry for all those further South who have had so much bad weather recently. It's more commonly us that gets such weather. I took full advantage of the sunshine and went on a four mile walk along the banks of Loch Lomond which is always a lovely experience. The water was so "blue" today, might sound silly but the colour really stood out. Didn't spot that much wildlife but there were some ducks on the Loch. Very much enjoyed myself and it got me out of cutting the grass, which I really ought to have done. Anyway, I believe it is to get much colder so it makes sense to get out there when you can, not that I am adverse to walking in any weather, it's just more pleasant when it's warm.

I really am a great lover of colour, whether it be the countryside with all its greenery and beautiful wild flowers or be my latest knitting projects where I love to mix colours. I like many, particularly vibrant colours, red being my favourite though love deep blue, yellow and certain shades of green. I would love to be able to paint or take good photographs but I can always enjoy the efforts of others which I do.When I look at others' photographs, colour is often what does it for me. I follow many great photographers on twitter and love the work of @skm1963 @karenspix and @stargazer for their fantastic use of it.

This is just a short entry as I just wanted to say that.