Indecision

It is such a long time since I have written a blog, I have my doubts if I can remember how to do it? :-). I am sure I will manage with the help of Mendellsohn's third symphony ( Scotch ) to listen to. What an absolutely marvellous piece of music. Long ago, I learned to play the 3rd movement by "ear" on violin and it released a lot of emotions for me at a very difficult point of my life.

Well, as usual, I prattle on and don't get to the point which is my title and for once I will try to do so. Indecision can hold us back so much, even when we know in our heart what we should do, but life is to some extent a "gamble"and one that needs to be taken as far as I am concerned. I very often wish that I had listened to my own advice more and I may have achieved what I really wanted to do, but life kind of gets in the way sometimes. However, if you don't make the necessary changes, you stay stuck in that place you don't want to be in.

On saying that, I am now in very much the place I do want to be in as I am older and don't any longer want the same things I did when I was young and I feel very comfortable in a way I didn't then. I love my personal family so deeply, and also my more extended one, but I still regret not doing something with my musical passion as it is indeed that ; I am so passionate about music. I will do something with it one day but for now, it isn't the right time.

Indecision can paralyse all natural thoughts or exacerbate them. The answer is finding the fine line between such extremes and compromise in any situation normally works best and benefits all. Humans are so silly at times that they cannot settle their differences in a sensible way as they always want to war, and where has that ever got us?

If you cannot decide on a course of action, no matter what it may be, you remain in limbo ,screwing up your own brain and making yourself and others unhappy. I'd rather gamble (something I have never, ever done in a monetary sense) and free myself. If  life is difficult, it may get worse but there is a strong chance it just might get better so do it. And compromise is one of my favourite words as is freedom.

Still here but advertising. :D

I have not written a blog for a long time as been very busy with other parts of my life. I am putting a great deal of energy into advertising my husband's new novel and it truly deserves my effort and time as it is so well written and quite frankly, an absolutely brilliant piece of writing. I would absolutely love to have his talent but no, I will not advertise his novel here as this is my space.

I am at the moment just sitting contemplating all of my life and as usual not really succeeding to any extent on knowing what it is all really about but I am as always trying to find the reason behind everything, perhaps that is not the answer? However, it is part of who I am and I doubt I will change and as I am listening to Grieg's piano concerto, I feel quite relaxed, though I accidentally only put first movement on so shall play something else. getting better at the tab thing so may actually be able to make my way back to this blog.

Well here I am. I have managed to post "Scheherazade" by Rimsky-Korsakov which I adore. It is a "Symphonic Suite" and terribly beautiful.

Both my cats are close by and that always makes me feel happy and good.

I really enjoyed Christmas as my lovely daughter, her boyfriend, who is very lovely too, and my gorgeous little granddaughter came over for dinner. Beautiful day. :-).

Really need to go to optician as I am not seeing as well as I ought to. I am going to try a different one this time as not terribly satisfied with my previous one. Now have Braham's 3rd symphony, 3rd movement on. Can't find a whole piece as can't see properly and can't be bothered wasting time. This is lovely. :-)
New Year was spent with my lovely granddaughter who fell asleep before the bells but woke up at 2.a.m. and kept me entertained with her stories until 6.a.m. :-).

Have moved on musically to "Steely Dan". Really good band. Well actually this is last bit of music as tired but enjoyed listening to it all.

Anyway, that is the latest in my life. :-)